If you really knew me....

If you really knew me you would know that I'm blonde and have blue eyes.

You would know that I always run 2 miles everyday... I'm addicted

If you really knew me, you would know that I'm a good girl.. or maybe I'm not and i just want to be one.

You would know that i have a little sister who wears all my clothes... but i guess i cant complain because i wear hers

If you really knew me you would know that i feel like i have to lie to the people i care about the most, i feel if i were to tell them the truth they would take it the wrong way or they couldn't handle it.

If you really knew me you would know that i LOVE the color pink, always have and always will!

You would know that when i believe in something i don't allow anyone to convince me its not real.

If you really new me you would know that if a boy is calling me, he has to call twice before i pick up...

If you really knew me you would know that when i say something i mean it, i don't just say things to say things.

If you really knew me you would know that when i was a little girl i hit a boy so hard i went to the principal because the boys nose was broken

If you really knew me you would know that i never mean to hurt anyone but i always find a way to.

If you really knew me you would know that i love children.

You would know that my biggest dream is to be a mother and be married to an amazing man.

If you really knew me you would know that i have changed my life around and that I'm trying so hard to do whats right.

You would know that i giggle in a high pitch voice.

If you really knew me you would know You would know that my parents are really strict, and that me and my parents always get in fights.

If you really knew me you would know that i have lots of rules that i have to follow... and I don't feel free at all.

TAKEN...in love

Neveah is eighteen years old. She has a little sister and two older brothers. Her parents are very protective. She goes to school then to dance and then voice lessons, after that she comes home does homework then goes to bed. That was her everyday routine. She has only 500 text per month and she doesn't know her password to facebook. She has to be in on weekends at ten if her parents even let her go out. She spends most of her time hanging with her family or with her cousin who is her same age. Even though Neveah hardly has a social life she is known but everyone. She is a shy but sweet girl and she is very naturally beautiful. One sunny day while Neveah was playing with her little sister at the park, she had a feeling that someone was watching her. Sure enough there was a black Outie TT car just sitting in the parking lot. It was the only car there and she didn't even remember when it parked there. The windows were to tinted to see inside. Neveah told her little sister it was time to go home. When she got home she remember that two nights ago that same car was parked outside her window. She had thought that her neighbors had gotten a new car because it was parked there the whole night. But in the morning it was gone. That night Neveah went to sleep with her little sister. Then two men grab her and throw her into a car, they told her little sister that if she says a word she will never see Neveah again. After ten hours of driving they stop in front of a tall building in LA. they took her to the top floor. When they get to the top they open a door to this beautiful expensive apartment. There in the livening room is a man. He looks about 22 maybe 23, he looks like a different race and very good looking.  He looks at Neveah and smiles. "Nice to finally meet you Neveah".....

Questions:

1. What do you think will happen to Neveah?

2. Will she fall in love with her kidnapper?

3. Will her little sister tell the cops what she knows?  

Doorbell Ditching

"Get down.. your going to get caught, standing up like that!"

It happened so fast, and sometimes it is hard to reminisce in this exciting, heart pumping night.

"shhhh! Im going to do it." 

It was a Saturday night and my friends and I were bored and looking for something to do.

"Do you know the people?"

"Will you just shut up! She is going to do it."

So of course we thought to go doorbell ditching to get our adrenaline rushing.

"Where do I hide though...?" 

It sounded like and good idea except when someone mentioned whose house we were doing.

The Cutlers!

They were not only the scariest family on the block but they also were not afraid to call the cops. As we lied on the cold, damp grass I remember thinking who was going to do it. Then as if the house was calling to me I courageously volunteered. Don’t ask me why.

"Just hide in the bush right there..."

"okay!"

"Run fast! haha"

My heart stopped when I looked at the door...

 

NO!

No is all I could think.

"NO..."

My parents were very strict on boyfriends during highschool.

One morning my parents scared me so bad that I promised myself I wouldn’t have one until college.

When I looked at him, I thought of my parents. This made it even worse when he came walking up to me and said those words that echoed in my head.

“Will you go out with me?”

I almost think that my brain gave out for a second, he was so cute and I liked him alot. And when my brain went to throw that one word out of my mouth, it got swallowed in my stomach and out came the exact opposite word.

 “No.”

Then I didn’t know what to do but walk away fast. So that is exactly what I did.

 "are you kidding me..."

 is all I hear as I ran to my car.

Dear older brother...

Brother, my brother,
How selfish was I
While you seemed to struggle,
I sit here and lie

Brother, my brother,
Yes, try as I might
I now realize
It was also my fight

Brother, my brother
I sit here and fast
It is you far more haunted
By my mistakes in the past

Brother, dear brother
Listen when I say
I will listen to your words
Till this pain goes away

Brother, dear brother
Listen when I say
I will follow you
Till I meet you at my judgement day.      

Self Image

This year be you...

By the end of life
You need to carefully
Find u.

Rapunzel!

So my favorite movie is Tangled. I love this movie because I feel like I relate a lot to Rapunzel! I feel like I'm trapped in a tower and I'm ready to be free. some people say I look like her to and my personality they say is like hers to. So this is why I like this movie.

                                    Rapunzel! Rapunzel!

"Rapunzel! Rapunzel! You've cut off your hair! Your billowing tresses are no longer there. That mo hawk you're sporting is spiky and pink. I'm really not certain just what I should think. "I came here expecting to clamber a braid, ascending your tower to come to your aid. Instead I have suffered the greatest of shocks to find that you've cut off your lovely blonde locks." "Prince Charming, Prince Charming," Rapunzel replied, "I have no intention of being your bride. We will not get married. We will not elope. I've cut off my hair and I've braided a rope. "You came here to visit me once every day, and promised that soon you would take me away, but you were too clueless to even conceive of cutting my hair off so we could just leave. "I cannot believe you were such a big dope. I come and I go as I please with my rope. And so, I'm afraid I can't give you my hand. In spite of the fabulous wedding you planned." From then on Rapunzel was known through the land. She toured the world in a rock and roll band. And silly Prince Charming, with rocks in his head, rode off and got married to Snow White instead.

Tangled

Hair so thick and gleaming gold

Behind it is a story that is untold

Being take from her mother and stuck into a castle

She wanted to see the floating lights but it seemed a hassle

She wanted to get out and take flight

so she slid down her hair into the night

away from her mother and safe things

with hair that glows when she sings

Her mother warned her not to go

but Rapunzel didn't listen and yes that's so

But in the end she met her real mother and married the man

Her life started with just a urge to see floating lanterns so she ran.

   

 

hello to goodbye

Hey there stranger, how you beenFeels like I'm standing on the outside looking inAt the mess we left behindAnd it's a long way to fallI gave you everything I hadI gave it allAnd then my heart was on the line

I can't hate youAny longerI know I'm going to miss youI'll forget it and let it go.

Say hello to goodbye, cause it's gone foreverNo more try, you and INot now, not everAnd I'll get by without youI'm not going back againI'm not going to lie to youCause, that was there and only then.

Say hello to goodbyeSay hello...

And this is how it has to beCause it's a deadly combination, you and meYou know it's undeniableEven though we tried it allWe brought the worst out in each otherI recallWe can't act it anymore

What doesn't kill youIt makes you strongerAnd though I'm going to miss youI'll forget it and let you go
Say hello to good-byeIt's gone foreverNo more try, you and INot now, not everAnd I'll get by without youI'm not going back againI'm not going to lie to youCause, that was there and only then.

Say hello to goodbyeSay hello...

And even though the tears will dryI can't completely disconnectCouldn't make the compromiseDidn't have a safety net

Say hello to goodbyeHeeey ya ya

Say hello, goodbye

Say hello to good-byeIt's gone foreverNo more try, you and INot now, not everAnd I'll survive without youI'm not going back againI'm not going to lie to youCause, that was there and only then.

Say hello, to goodbyeSay hello, to goodbyeSay hello, helloTo goodbye.

Stolen

Innocence 

By: Mandi Ducroq

"Innocence stolen without my permission"

A lot of girls in the world today have there innocence stolen.
Weather or not they want it to happen.


Women are becoming more and more like items in men's eyes.
I love this poem because this girl is saying it plan and simple.
She is speaking out, and doing what a lot of girls wish they could do.


A lot of girls hide inside, and it eats away at them,
until the innocent sweet girl
becomes the girl you see in Vegas...
Or they are scared to speak out, or brain wasted in thinking its normal.
The media whats you to believe that innocence is outdated.
In all reality innocence is hard to come by now a days.

"Innocence turned to hatred and fear
Innocence gone, no man can come near"

When this happens you feel like you can't talk to anyone
your Scared...


Lost...

Every guy around you terrifies you, you hate them.
You feel sick....
You don't want to eat, sleep,
scared he might visit your dreams...
You feel like everyone knows
You want to become invisible
You have nightmares, visions, and thoughts of him
Everything reminds you of him.
You see him everywhere.
Your heart doesn't just stop when you see him...
it dies...

Your stomach twists and hurts.
And you cry every night.

You wish he would die...

Because you hate HIM.

Sometimes I wish I had a voice.
I wish I could say something.
Sometimes I wish I could scream.

Because HE is in my nightmares every night...
He smiles at me says
"Don't scream..."

The life of a Runner...

Get born.

Learn to walk.

Learn to talk.

Run.

Find friends.

Find a job.

Run.

Graduate.

Go to college.

Find the one.

Have one.

Have two.

Run.

Have three.

Roast a chicken.

Cut bangs.

Run.

Breathe.

Run.

Relax.

Run a 5k.

Have a BBQ.

Run a 10k.

Church.

Listen. Listen. Listen.

Be loved. 

Look lovely.

Travel.

Run marathon.

Give back.

Make cookies.

Live a long life.

Run.

Like Mike!

There more then just shoes!

Dreaming of a better tomorrow

Dreaming is something everyone does...
Weather it be when we lay our head down every night...
Or when we are in class dreaming of what our future holds...
Ether way every person has a dream...
That's how our world keeps turning...

I have lots a dreams.
Some of them matter and some don't.
I dream that I will become famous.
I dream that I will have lots of money.
I dream of owning my own house.
I dream that I will get married to a good man
and have children...

But what if I had to worry about what happens to that child?
What if my children were taken from me?
What if they were focused to kill...

KONY 2012

Its scary to think that this is real. 
That things like this go on in the world without us knowing.
To know that I didn't know about this till 5:30 on Saturday night 3/10/12.
Theses children don't dream of being famous, having money or even owning a house.
They dream of living through the night....
Of dreaming to die then be taken.

This is what I dream about.
I dream that this will stop.
That these INVISIBLE children will become VISIBLE.
That we put a end to this.
This is my dream........

I hope this isn't just an other blog post to you.

Because this is real.

This is happening now.

And this is our future...

We are the next generation.
So lets be Better then the one before us.

WE make the difference!

WE change the world!

WE be the change!

This is my dream....

Why me?

Why here?

 I see them handing it around the circle...

 Are these really my friends?

 It was getting closer and closer to me.

This stuff looked like crap in a bag.

Could it really hurt me just this once?

 Finally they handed it to me. “Try some, it won’t hurt…..”

Why me?

Why here?

I was looking at the clothes they were handing me…

Are these really my friends?

The skirts were so high and the shirts so tight.

You could see everything.

Would it really matter if I wore this one skanky shirt?

I see them standing behind me. “Wear it, it won’t hurt”

Why me?

Why here?

He hands me it.

Does he really like me?

The glass is cold to my hand.

The liquid inside the glass looks so inviting.

Could this one drink do any harm this one time?

He smiles at me. “Drink some, it won’t hurt”

“No, I'm OK I don’t do drugs…”

“No, I'm a good girl I don’t wear this…”

“No, thanks I don’t drink…”

Sometimes we let others control are future. but we shouldn't... we need to stand up for our self and have courage. courage is what it take to stand up and speak out! There are no easy answers' but there are simple answers. we must have the courage to do what we know is morally right. We gain strength, and courage, and confidence by each experience in which we really stop to look fear in the face... we must do that which we think we cannot. Courage is knowing not to fear.

Still I Rise

 You may write me down in history

with your bitter, twisted lies,

you may trod me in the very dirt

but still, like dust, I'll rise.

you may shoot me with your words,

you may cut me with your eyes,

you may kill me with your hatefulness,

but still, like air, I'll rise

Out of the huts of history's shame

I rise

Up form a past that's rooted in pain

I rise

Im a black ocean, leaping and wide,

Welling and swelling I bear in the tide.

Leaving behind nights of terror and fear

I rise

Into a daybreak thats wondrously clear

I rise

Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave,

I am the dream and the hope of the slave.

I rise

I rise

I rise!

It doesn't matter!

Life is made up of years that mean nothing and moments that mean it all.

Then why do I regret the past?

You're born, you die, and in between you make a lot of mistakes.

There are no mistakes in life, only lessons.

The why I'm I so afraid to make one?

Life isn't about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.

Then why do I feel like I haven't changed?

Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.

The greatest risk in life is not taking one.

Then why won't I jump?

Life isn't about keeping score.
It's not about how many people call you and it's not about who you've dated, are dating, or haven't dated at all. It isn't about who you've kissed, what sport you play, or which guy or girl likes you. It's not about your shoes or your hair or if you fat or thin. its not about the color of your skin or where you live or go to school.

In fact, it's not about grades, money, clothes, or colleges that accept you or not. Life isn't about if you have lots of friends, or if you are alone, and it's not about how accepted or unaccepted you are. its not about who wins the super bowl or who wins American idol. Life just isn't about that....

But life is about who you love and who you hurt. In life God doesn't give you the people you want, instead He gives you the people you need. To teach you, to hurt you, to love you, and make you exactly the way you should be. It's about how you feel about yourself. It's about trust, happiness, and compassion. Life is about avoiding jealousy, overcoming ignorance, and building confidence. The times in life, that seems to be the worst, always turn out for the best! It's about what you say and what you mean. It's about seeing people for who they are and not what they have.
Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have or could have had. No one waits forever...

You only live once, so do everything twice.....

Most of all, it is about choosing to use your life to touch someone else's in a way that could never have been achieved otherwise. These choices are what life's about. I don't want to be the person that when I'm looking back at my life when I die and be regretting everything I did. I want to be saying "I'm glad I took that risk... I'm glad I made that mistake... I'm glad I jumped"

Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have or could have had...



In my life, I meet people. Some I never think about again. Some, I wonder what happened to them. And then there are some that I wonder if they ever think about me. And then there are some I wish I never had to think about again. But I do.



No Turning Back

Dressed in my disguising costume, trying to decide if I should turn back or resume

Creeping and sneaking down the hallway of black

I thought to myself “How can I do such a thing?”

But then came the vivid memory of the violent smack

And as I held up the knife with the rush feeling of attack

I knew there was no turning back

Thoughts of my childhood, my dad as he stood

Then from within came the fear that there was no fighting back

He would angrily twist the whip, obviously drunk

Then the awful feeling of the very painful crack

And as I thrust the knife downward in attack

I knew there was no turning back

The blood was dark red as it seeped and stained the bed

I pushed and shoved the body to the floor with a big clack

And watched as his corpse lay there breathing no more air

I fled from the house slamming the door with a smack

This crime was horrible but would relief me from the dreadful flashback

And I knew there was no turning back

1. Courage is resistance to fear, mastery of fear - not absence of fear

Fear.....

I'm afraid of letting you go
Knowing I have to, but don't want to
Knowing next time I see you
I wont be able to talk to you...

I'm afraid of fake
Of being called fake
Fake people with fake personalities
Fake smiles, fake faces...

I'm afraid of people
Of peoples thoughts...

I'm afraid of being alone
Living alone, dying alone
Sitting there at the end
And regretting my life...

I'm afraid of letting you go
Knowing I have to, but don't want to
Knowing I'm not met to be with you
But want to be...

I'm afraid of giving my love away
Of giving something
That has been broken so many times...

I'm afraid of settling
Ending up in a divorce of two
I don't want to end up like her
I don't want to end up alone...

I'm afraid of losing someone I love
Or never meeting the person
I'm suppose to love
Or losing my opportunity...

I'm afraid of letting you go
Knowing I need to
but I'm not going to...

Because my worst fear is living with out you...

Best friends...

Remember when we went to lunch everyday for two years, 

You never complained how much it was.

Remember when you taught me how to ride a skateboard the very first night we met

I ran over your foot and all you did was laugh.

Remember when we went to that hunted house you build with your dad

I held your arm through out the whole night and you let me...

Remember when I got sick because we went on the spinning ride over and over again

I threw up the rest of the night and you sat there comforting me

Remember when we would watch movies on your couch, you tried to kiss me but I told you no

You smiled at me and said "I'll wait"

Remember when you would ask me to hang every night and I always said I was to busy

But you kept asking....

Remember when I told you I liked other guy who was a jerk

You warned me but I didn't listen

Remember when I cried in your arms because he hurt me 

You told me you wanted to kill him

Remember when you told me you loved me, I told you I wasn't ready to love you back

And so you waited until was...

Remember when you liked that girl and I told you I didn't think she was right for you

And so you ended it with her.

Remember when you asked me to write you 

Because you had to go away for two years 

Remember I cried in your car because I knew I would miss you.

I remember that day I realized I was in love with my best friend... 

I'm thinking about you love....

I'm thinking about you like a fat boy thinks about candy. 

Like peanut butter thinks about jelly.

I'm thinking about you like clocks think about time. 

Like the sunrise thinks about never seeing the sunset.

Like a bee thinks about flowers. 

I'm thinking about you like hands think about holding. 

Like cold feet think about cuddling on a cold day. 

I'm thinking about you when its raining all day... 

I'm thinking about you like dark thinks about light. 

Like day thinks about night. 

I'm thinking about you like scary stories think about late night campfires. 

Like girls think about love and boys think about love... games! 

I'm thinking about you like children think about the future.

Like adults think about the past. 

I'm thinking about you everywhere, anywhere. 

Your always there....in my head.. 

I miss you... 

I miss you like pictures miss the memories they hold. 

Like pillows miss pillow fights. 

I miss you like warm body's miss steamy backseats of the car. 

Like parks miss small family picnics.

Like the sun miss the moon when its not there.

I miss you... and I hope you miss me to.

I'm thinking about you love...  

Once in a while, Right in the middle of ordinary life, Love gives us a fairy tale... So maybe... if you can’t get them off your mind, they are supposed to be there. Maybe, no matter how rough it is, they need you in their life... Or maybe, by some odd chance… you need them in yours.

LOVE...

What is Love? …You know you’re in love when you don’t what to go to sleep because you realized that reality is better than your dreams... If you are asking me if I need you, the answer is forever, if you are asking if I will leave you, the answer is never, if you are asking what I value, the answer is you, if you are asking if I love you, the answer is I do… how do I Love? ... To love is nothing, to be loved is something, to love and be loved is everything… Once you have learned to love, you will have learned to live…love reminds you that nothing else matters… who do I love? ... Love is not finding someone you can Live with, it’s finding someone you can’t Live without… true love stories never have happy endings because true love stories never end… love doesn’t make the world go round, love is what makes the ride worth wild… So what is Love? …

1st Post

So I didn't know what to put so I just did my favorite name. I love this name because the first time I ever heard it was in the mall and it was a little girl. she had cute little brown curls and rosie cheeks. I think I will name my first daughter this because the name is heaven spelt backwards (nevaeh). and that's why i put angel before it because then its like an angel from heaven... angel nevaeh :)